I mentioned in a previous post that I’ve spent a lot of time evaluating. I do a lot of evaluating this time of year, gearing up for the big purchasing spree for next year’s books. Believe it or not, even Tapestry of Grace gets thrown into the ring for evaluation. Nothing is spared this rigorous, tedious, and depressing task.
It’s the age-old “am I doing enough” homeschool question that we are forced to ask ourselves.
We’re half-way through our second year of Tapestry, and I still love it. I love what the kids are learning, I love the books, I love the worldview and church history woven into the lessons, I love the customizing I’m allowed to do, I even love the planning and prep.
I don’t love that I have to create the memory work for my kids (and wonder if I’m doing it right or requiring too much or too little). And I don’t love how much time it takes to prep, plan, and execute. So each year, I look at other history curriculums. Okay, each year I specifically look at Classical Conversations. It is impressive. If you’ve ever looked at it, you know what I mean.
In fact, we use a lot of Classical Conversation stuff to supplement TOG. I love the CC apps. And I always search youtube for Classical Conversation videos to help with my memory work and chants with the kids. So, should I just buckle down and make the switch?
I’ll tell you what helped me make up my mind to stick with Tapestry (at least until next year, when I debate this again). I emailed a woman who participates in a Classical Conversation and asked her if it eased her burden or increased it. She emailed back that it would depend on whether or not I could let go of “but we could have” and “but we should have.” Oh my goodness! That comment illuminated the whole issue.
Really, the issue wasn’t my curriculum at all. I honestly love Tapestry. The problem is with me and would most likely carry over with anything I used, because truthfully I have trouble letting go of the “but we could have/but we should have.” We could have memorized more, we could have added more books, we could have been more delight-driven. We should have added more science and more nature study and more music and more art.” But then, we wouldn’t really have a life, right?
So I’ve chosen once more to pack up my super woman cape, and admit to being human. Admit that less than perfect is perfectly okay. Admit that the problem isn’t my science or history curriculum, but in my own evaluations. Admit that I am in desperate need of grace daily, even moment by moment. And to be satisfied with that grace and with the humbling required to receive it.